I think I saw my future walk by in a dream. It rustled through my mind before I could catch it As elusive as something beautiful passing just outside my window.
I have been looking out the window and wondering what life on the other side of that pane of glass will look like as governors announce their plans to lift COVID-19-induced shelter-in-place orders. I don’t know when it will really be safe to go outside again, or when life will start feeling closer to the way it was before we began social and physical distancing, but I’m planning my future life or, more accurately, I’m mentally sorting through what I need to add back to my life when I can live on either side of my window pane, and which changes I shouldn’t reverse.
Today, I’m cold. I sit on my hands, hoping that the couch and my butt can keep them a little more warm than they currently are, and I excitedly tell my therapist that after I’ve finally downloaded that app we’ve been discussing for a couple of weeks. I know that I've lost a lot of weight in two days, but it’s probably just weird midweek fluctuation. And I’m fine. I have energy! I’m even working out. Yes, Chris, I’m eating more to accommodate for whatever calories I burn while working out. I’m fine.
Trophy wives in tech used to be exactly like trophy wives in any other context, or like any other expensive item: to have and to hold til death (or a mistress) do them part. The new tech trophy wife, however, is a little different. Amazingly described by @PennyRed on Twitter, the new tech trophy wife "isn’t the hot young model. It’s the most brilliant, accomplished woman you can get to give up her career to have your kids."
Hovering between life and death and malnourishment, wondering if physics and chemistry could allow some wiggle room if you decided in the middle that you didn't want to fall anymore.
He leans back, looking at me while idly stirring his tea, the way men in the American Mafia do when they realize they’re made men. Except made men drink cocktails. Irvine Welsh drinks tea.
I wanted to write us the greatest love story of all time. But I am not great.
Carbs. Carbs are good. Carbs will give you energy. Dairy is nutrition for baby cows. And you are not a baby cow.
Cover the keypad. First paycheck. Watch the mirror.
Every so often the lights flicker out.